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worriedI went to both B&N and Borders, yet neither carry Blue Boy! Not in the database! Is all gay porn online now? My friends would throw the mag at me when I was young.
I went off Welbutrin for sobriety. (maniacal laughter shouldn't go on for months) I feel more stabile, and more human.
I almost miss the pink cloud...worried about my prison of a body and how to present it without becoming depressed.
I've realized that most people don't bother to listen after being forced into hetero-sexual rape five years ago by patient at Crownsville Hosp, whom I had disclosed to that I am transgender. That insensitivity rode his motorcycle roaring down the street several times like I would leave. I nearly called him, but I don't need to be womanized, so I won't, hopefully, go thru that again.
Why do people assume that I'm a MTF, if they know that I am trans? Yeah, a therapist assumed, along with several others...
I'm worried about it...how to get a boyfriend...how to have sex...cross that bridge when I get there...
